Ran for 3 miles today even after recovering from being sick all weekend! I'm so proud of myself. I don't think I've run 3 miles since November/December that wasn't race related. :) Yeeey.

I really need to get some motivation! I ran today and when I went to log my workout I can't believe that 20 days had passed since my last run! 20 DAYS. I swear.. time is just FLYING by me. :( I really need to make myself for accountable and get myself out there. I'm really planning to lose at least 40lbs over the summer and I want to get started on my goal now.

I felt really unmotivated during my run. I just felt sad and depressed. I just couldn't get my legs moving. I had just come home from a stressful day with my 1st graders as well and my feet were killing meee. I just couldn't stop thinking so much while I was out there. The entire time..

"I'm so tired."
"My feet hurt."
"What am I going to do for classroom management.."
"I can't believe I couldn't keep running."
"I don't want to walk, I want to run like I used to."
"It's cold."
"People are watching me."
"I'm depressed."
"I miss home."

It was just constant complaining in my mind. Which is very unusual for me since when I run I usually just forget about everything and the only thing I usually think about is my feet hitting the floor. For some reason the sound of that and watching it just relaxes me. Didn't work today.

I did get a boost of motivation tho! I was about halfway through my route when a group of girls running were about the zoom by me. They kindly said thank you and continued on their way. I just felt motivated watching them that I was able to get started again and take a lot fewer breaks for the rest of my run. I just kept thinking about how great it will feel when I will be able to go father and faster and how easier it'll be when I lose more weight.

So yes. I want to keep myself accountable.